I HAVE LOST MANY THIS WEEK

my best friend died...from cancer. Another friend died last week from cancer. Today a coworker died from cancer. I have a cousin fighting cancer another friend fighting cancer, 2 dozen I know are surviving cancer and now my fiance was just diagnosed with cancer. I fcuking HATE cancer! I am beyond upset and besides myself thinking about all of this... when it all comes down to it, thinking that I have survived through it all... I am feeling pretty damn guilty, fcuking SUCKS.